Life and living

I remember being 14 and thinking I knew much of the world and life and how it all works. But I was proven wrong.

I remember being 18, sad, heartbroken, in a new city, new college, new friends and I thought I knew the world and life and how it all works. But I was again proven wrong.

I am 21, freshly graduated, no sense of direction regarding my future, worried about future prospects, job, money and all else that adulting involves, and suddenly in the midst of this chaos I realized, now I know how it all works. And I’m sure I might be proven wrong in a few years once more.

I realized the world and life and how it all works is best left to do its own thing while you do your thing. It won’t stop for you, change for you, deviate for you and definitely not do what you want it to do. 

You’ll always feel you’re in the wrong era, the wrong continent, the wrong country and the wrong city. Nothing will feel right if  you are not right. By right, I mean excited, content, easy-going and just plain and simple, happy.

Be happy and excited about the world and life and everything else and life around you will all make sense. It will all fall into place darling, and if it doesn’t it is not the end.

The Art of Living by Opinionated Narrator 😉

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P.S. I am all happy and wise tonight because why the hell not. 😊

Appreciation for the smaller things in life

I have always been happy with little accomplishments. I don’t know if it makes me foolish or awesome.

But I’m gonna be a kid (which technically I still am) and celebrate having followers, likes and comments on my blog. 

When I started this blog, I was damn scared to publish stuff. I was undecided on what things I should or shouldn’t talk about but the more I blog, the more I realise being true to yourself never fails you. 

I thought my opinions or my take on things won’t matter because I’m barely an adult who knows nothing about life, yet. I thought my voice won’t matter or would get lost in the thousands and thousands of other voices. But I feel thankful to God that I’ve got a bunch of people who are rooting for me, encouraging me and making my day with their wonderful comments, in real as well as virtual life.

I am very grateful to all of you and thanks a lot. Thanks for being my friend.

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My saviour.

Whenever I made a mistake

A fight with mom

Or arguments with dad

A tiff with my sister

Or tears due to big bro

Out came my only relief

A knife with a sharp edge

A slash on my thighs

Or a gash on my wrist

The red of the pooling blood

Blocked away the pain

Let me escape the real world

It always helped me

Freed me, but also made me sad

Then out of the blue

My angel came

Promised to hold my hand, forever

And thus my inner me

Helped me to cherish

The wonderful mess I was always supposed to be….


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Suggestions ??

So I’m in a bit of a situation here. Its not something I’d usually ask others about but I’m seriously reconsidering everything I do these days. So, here goes nothing.

I’ve just graduated from a good university. I studied a subject that not many people go for willingly. But three years ago, forensic science seemed like a good idea and I was very sure I had a bright future ahead of me. Three years later, I feel like kicking the old me for believing in something like that.

I was told by many people to go for something safe and known, but I persisted and now here I am sitting at home, blogging and writing poems, with no idea of what to do next. 

Whatever I think or say makes no sense to everyone around me and I don’t just want to settle like everyone else does. You know, settling for that medical or engineering or business degree and living that monotonous 9 to 5 life scares me.

I don’t know what to do and I feel like I’m wasting my time sitting and planning for things instead of taking any actions. 

I really want to do something that’s worthwhile. Something that gives me satisfaction that I’m doing my bit for the world. So I decided to study Social Work for my post graduation. But now everyone thinks I’m making another bad decision on my part. It won’t pay much and I’d have to work tirelessly. 

I don’t mind the work bit but not earning enough in this economic condition doesn’t feel like a good choice. I don’t want to live the rest of my life off of my parents or worse, my husband (in case some idiot does marry me). 

have looked into colleges, fees, course work, placements and all that and I don’t know what to make of it. I mean 3 years ago, google said forensic would be a good career option so I’m not that inclined to trust google to help me decide.

I don’t know if someone’s gonna help me or not. I don’t need someone to make my decision but a little direction would be a great help so I’m putting this out there hoping someone stumbles upon this and has something to say. Fingers crossed.

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Suggestions ??

So I’m in a bit of a situation here. Its not something I’d usually ask others about but I’m seriously reconsidering everything I do these days. So, here goes nothing.

I’ve just graduated from a good university. I studied a subject that not many people go for willingly. But three years ago, forensic science seemed like a good idea and I was very sure I had a bright future ahead of me. Three years later, I feel like kicking the old me for believing in something like that.

I was told by many people to go for something safe and known, but I persisted and now here I am sitting at home, blogging and writing poems, with no idea of what to do next. 

Whatever I think or say makes no sense to everyone around me and I don’t just want to settle like everyone else does. You know, settling for that medical or engineering or business degree and living that monotonous 9 to 5 life scares me.

I don’t know what to do and I feel like I’m wasting my time sitting and planning for things instead of taking any actions. 

I really want to do something that’s worthwhile. Something that gives me satisfaction that I’m doing my bit for the world. So I decided to study Social Work for my post graduation. But now everyone thinks I’m making another bad decision on my part. It won’t pay much and I’d have to work tirelessly. 

I don’t mind the work bit but not earning enough in this economic condition doesn’t feel like a good choice. I don’t want to live the rest of my life off of my parents or worse, my husband (in case some idiot does marry me). 

have looked into colleges, fees, course work, placements and all that and I don’t know what to make of it. I mean 3 years ago, google said forensic would be a good career option so I’m not that inclined to trust google to help me decide.

I don’t know if someone’s gonna help me or not. I don’t need someone to make my decision but a little direction would be a great help so I’m putting this out there hoping someone stumbles upon this and has something to say. Fingers crossed.

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Politics of misled identity.

So I know not many of you’ll relate to this. But there’s this movie “Padmavati” starring Deepika Padukone, Ranveer Singh and Shahid Kapoor. 

The movie is basically supposed to be on a historical event, depicting the story that revolved around Queen Padmavati, and a war that occurred for her sake. A king, Alaudin Khilji, fell for her beauty and waged a war against her husband. Khilji won the war but couldn’t have the queen as she participated in “johar“, a ritual that involved all the women burning themselves in a large pyre as a sign of being loyal to their husbands. It was also supposed to be a preventive measure against the cruelty the women would have to suffer at the hands of the victor king and his subjects.

It was a bitter truth that was as much a part of the rich Indian history as the war for Independence or the various revolts and ill practices like child marriage and sati(common name for johar). We can’t erase our history, neither can we turn a blind eye on it.

You must be wondering why I went into all this detail. Well, Queen Padmavati belonged to the Rajput caste which includes various patrilineal clans. At present the movie is supposed to be released on Dec 1 but people across India are rallying against its release and demand the courts to ban it.

The people belonging to Rajput caste (and even various other castes) are protesting that a movie which showcases a Rajput Rani (queen) dancing to songs, which if you’ve seen even one Bollywood movie, you’d know is an integral part of the plot. They feel the movie disgraces their respect and identity as Rajputs.

It is not the first time that a movie based on some historical incident is made in India, nor will it be the last. There are various movies, good movies, that only raise our curiosity for India’s history and make us eager to learn more about the addressed subject. 

As a 21 year old, I know I’m not an expert in what should or shouldn’t tick us off as individuals or even part of a community/caste but I’m pretty sure that a movie based on some event of past, supposed to serve as entertainment, is not something we should waste our resources and breath on. There’s so many important issues that need our attention but we choose to participate in such petty movements that only feed the politicians motives. They get another issue to play their games of separating India as Rajputs (Hindus), Muslims, Sikhs and Christians. 

India is called the largest secular country and is a good example of people of various backgrounds living together and how things like castes, religions and language do not matter. Yet we, as its citizens, allow ourselves to be governed by these kinds of situations that only divide us and create disruptions in the peace, harmony and integrity of the people.

I know my rant will not serve to stop these protests but it gives me a some peace to know that I’m above these kind of things that don’t deserve our attention, makes me feel I’m doing my bit as a citizen.

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Confused

I woke up today to find 2 comment notifications on 2 different apps. One made me smile and the other made me question myself.

One person said they liked my writing style while another said we don’t always reveal what we feel, by our words. 

It got me thinking whether I do justice to my thoughts or not. Do I really sound like I know nothing ? Do I really write stuff that when you read you think she’s not saying what she feels ? Or do I actually write quite well and that person who thinks I’m hiding my real thoughts, not know what he’s talking about. 

I’m confused whether I should write or not because quite honestly it was better when I was just writing for myself. Now that people actually read what I write it makes me nervous and question myself. In my head I’m a great writer and story teller but now I’m not that sure.

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